Rise and Fall

Been a hectic week at office, which clearly shows from the reduced frequency in posting.

The thing is I am working on 2 projects simultaneously. And both are critical, time-consuming and require a lot of time and effort. The perfect recipe for a disaster, ain't it??? Anyway, I am somehow managing till now :)

And doing a good job at it. Did well to complete my set of tasks on the new project, and some more. Also had to interview some new joinees, a first for me!!! I am now a 'senior' here, you see :) And also had to solve some issues regarding my old project. And as such, feeling rather good about myself at work. The thing is, the new acquisition project coming up, is tough... Damn tough!!! With 3 of our most experienced people out of it, and two more fresh joinees to be trained, the entire onus is now on me, Nimish and Brijesh. And to top it all, I plan to leave the company. Thus, I am quite valuable to the project, and I have to do some critical tasks and transfer my knowledge and expertise to the others, before I leave.

Hey, that makes me feel good :) Good about myself. So much so, that when Brijesh was wondering whether we could successfully execute this one, I confidently said that we would, and do a good job of it! I was amazed at my own confidence! This is new, coming from me. But you see, I was feeling good about myself :)

Later today evening, I was with Brijesh and Pranav Vyas (he's my Project Lead) going over some issue that was recently unearthed. It turned out that there was a problem in the client system, which might have far reaching consequences. By the time I could read the mail, and even attempt to figure out what the hell had happened, Pranav and Brijesh were already off looking for solutions. And before I could say, "Hey, wait a minute...", they had already found it. Pranav, though not a technical person anymore, has the entire system in his head. He knows it like a clock knows time. So also Brijesh. And that's when it hit me like a thunderbolt...

Unknowingly, and yes it was unknowingly, I was getting a tad carried away. The good work done by me and the appreciation received was getting to me!!! This realisation came as a shock, cause I am really not too egoistic a person. And this really got me thinking. I hardly believed that experience is of great importance, and that a genuinely good person can do well even without it. But I just saw how wrong I was. It does count for a LOT!

This entire incident was such a great leveller; it brought me right down to Terra firma. Only when you look at people like Pranav, that one realises that there are miles to go before I can sit back and say what I told Brijesh, this time with genuine confidence... "Yeah, we'll do it. And do it well"